Brave & Broken.

Dear Chaim Boruch, 

I can’t believe I am sitting here in the waiting room, knowing you are in an operating room. 

My head and heart are throbbing and at any given moment the tears are slipping down my cheeks. I am praying for you with all my heart and soul. You are so incredibly special and are my world, my breath and my heartbeat.

I saw the fear in your eyes as we entered the pre-op ward. You remembered being there before and I think at that moment you understood deeply what I have been trying to explain.

I am with you on that table, broken, sore, bleeding and shattered.

I look at this photo of us just moments before putting you to sleep and there we are smiling with courage and broken with fear.

I am nothing without you by my side and I will not move from here until you are in my arms.

I love you more than life itself.

Love mommy